Jessie-Girl hugging her cousins
Yesterday was hard. I cleaned out the last of my daughters belongings from her bedroom. Then, I sorted through papers of my own and found more notes from my daughter, in addition to those that are in the drawer beside my bed.Speaking with my Lady Chatelaine on the phone helped me through the worst of it. With a two hour time difference, I had time on my hands after our late evening goodnight call. This is what use I made of the time.
Random Pencil Marks On Paper
The earliest notes from my daughter
Look like random pencil marks on paper
But I can read those markings:
I love you, Daddy.
A year later, the J for Jessie
Clear for all to see
With hearts and Xs and Os
Within a few weeks,
DADDY
I miss you daddy
Pleese tuk me in
Evin if it is lat.
I LOVE YOU
Jessie-Girl
I helped her with spelling
Still, I was both proud and saddened
When the note that greeted my late arrival said
Please TUCK me in Daddy
I miss you. I love you.
I knew my girl was growing up
The phonetic speller was gone
Now, it is ten months after the accident
My companion is only a cane
People look at me and notice
My "shadow" is no longer beside me
I am alone
But I have proof
That a little girl loved me with all her heart
The earliest notes from my daughter
Look like random pencil marks on paper
But I can read those markings:
I love you, Daddy.
